Introspection- rated G

[JosefsRose]

Written for the guess the author on MLAB.

I do not own moonlight only my imagination.
Introspection

I have sat through the ages, and barely looked back. But now, at her loss, I do. Why?

I have asked the same question of others, but not of myself. Why?

I have never wanted to seek the answers to some things. Things I have done, or should have done differently.

Why am I here? I would say because I am a survivor. I have more to do. Maybe the Fates, or God have other plans for me.

Who? Again I have asked it of others. Never of myself.

Who am I? I have changed my name countless times. I no longer know who I was.

Now the big one. What?

What am I? An age old question, a trick question. Ask others and they will say I am a man. Ask me and you will receive a different reply.

What am I? I am more, more than a man. I am a vampire. The un-dead, some would say an immortal. I have lived many lifetimes, seen things change.

I know I have changed, I am as different now as I was 50 yrs ago. I am a different person. Colder, harder. The shell of the human I was.

I have changed again now, now that she has gone. The last of what I was, has gone. She held me back from an abyss, now I will tumble head long into it.

What and who am I?

I am Josef Kostan, and I am a vampire.