Moonlight was the first show I ever got hooked on. It was the first show I analyzed every single scene, every movement, every line and every facial expression. It was the first show I tried to catch on the internet, as it wasn’t shown in Germany yet, and I didn’t watch much TV anymore. It was the first show that made me join a message board (and another and another…) and look up actors, ratings, behind-the-scenes material, screenwriters, directors and so on.
It was the first time that I fell in love with a singular actor just from one performance, from one scene, to be honest. It was the interview scene that hooked me, it was the hug at the end of NSTAV that made me cry, and it was the end of OOTP that made me realize that this was something truly special.
It was the first time I dared to write in English on a message board, and I learned so much in these four years. I’m now so fluent, know so much about pop culture and a lot of things I had no idea of.
Moonlight made me connect to my inner self that had been neglected for so long. For the first time I wrote fanfiction. For the first time I swooned over pictures and videos and graphics. For the first time I wanted to know every single detail about something other than a science project. I found my creative side again that had been buried mostly.
Moonlight helped me through some serious problems, like dealing with a lot of stress by finding an outlet, a distraction, that spoke to another part of me.
The emotions of the characters connected with me. Maybe it was the genius lighting and set décor that made me look at it, really watch the show without distractions. There was just so much to see. And so I trained myself to look for the details, and it made the whole experience so much more enjoyable, and deep, and meaningful.
There wasn’t a wasted scene in the show, from start to finish. I never enjoyed a show that much, and I haven’t since.
The message board let me make lots of friends, people I care about, people who share advice, jokes, personal matters, sorrows, triumph with me. Not that I lack friends in real life, but this is something else. We went through some pretty heavy stuff already (not the least the breaking up of some board, and the cancellation of ML).
I’m now at a point where I think the early cancellation might be a blessing in disguise. Who knows if this kind of quality could have been kept. The last four episodes are great, but they already show a shift in focus and style. The fanfiction kept the show alive for me, and still does.
