allegrita wrote:Francis, thank you very much for that interesting insight. I thought much the same thing... Vincent couldn't allow himself to be physical or sexual at all, and if he felt any sexual feelings, he had to disguise them from himself. The guy ate half a (trimmed) sandwich for breakfast, for criminy's sake. Talk about denying one's physical needs!
Think about the videotape of his mom's murder. I figure that Vincent was videotaping his mother from the closet because he was deriving some sort of sexual pleasure from watching his mom with the other man. And then when his mom was murdered by his dad--for doing something that Vincent was getting off on, and knew was wrong-- no wonder he was messed up, poor guy. He must have just tortured himself from that moment on--blaming himself for his mother's death, and yet also identifying with his father's rage at her. And by murdering all the blonde women, he was trying again and again to reconnect with his mother, which was impossible--because that connection was so confused--a combination of rage, abandonment, forbidden and "dirty" lust, and guilt.
I think that Alex did a wonderful job of portraying a guy who is completely closed off from himself--not only by OCD, but by guilt and repression. The way he snatched his hand away from Stan at the park was so telling to me... as was the way he held hands, bare hands, with him at the very end. Stan was his redemption, and Vincent loved him for that, at the same time he suffered tremendously from even more guilt for having murdered Stan's mom.
Vincent told Stan to never wish for death--and I believe he could never have overtly committed suicide, because of his repression--but I wonder if perhaps that's why he went to the part of town where he got attacked. Maybe he was committing suicide in the only way he could. And if he'd lived through that, I can see him putting himself into a situation where the cops had to kill him.
This is good Allegrita!
There are two things I disagree with you here, though. As a nine year old boy I don't think he received sexual gratification at watching his mom. I taught 2nd and 3rd graders for 31 years. They really aren't in that place yet. They may explore each other but more out of curiosity than anything else. And there was no hint he had been sexually abused, so that wouldn't have been an issue. I think filming was a coping thing for him. That and hiding in the closet.
Also, I don't think he pulled his hand away from the boy at the park; when the boy grabbed his hand the pull gave him pain and he bent quickly; but here, you could be right. I just saw that differently because he had already began dropping all the OCD stuff.
His reaction in the park at being surrounded by so many people; he felt such confusion because he always was alone before that. I think taking Stan to the park was also his way of trying to live the life of a normal child; another way Stan helped him. Remember, he planned that outing before he was stabbed. He planned to change with Stan's help. Then, when he knew he was dying, he did it for the boy. He wanted a chance to ask forgiveness before he died. Which he did with his last words.
