Forever - Mick/Beth - ONESHOT - PG
Posted: Sat Jan 31, 2009 10:15 am
[x]Title: Forever
[x]Author: Heartagram_LaLa
[x]Rating: PG
[x]Warning: None
[x]Pairing: Mick/Beth
[x]Genre: Angst
[x]Words: 639
[x]Spoilers: Ep 1 - There's no such thing as vampires.
[x]Summary: Set after Ep 1 - Mick's thoughts about immortality and what that means for relationships with humans
[x]Disclaimer: Not my toys, im just borrowing them =D
Forever for a human means a lifetime, forever for a vampire means many lifetimes. Watching those you come to care about constantly dying before your from-afar watching eyes.
Forever starts from the moment you are turned, and lasts many a human lifetime, right up until the moment you are killed.
And it is never pleasant, never quick and painless, being a vampire means the only way to die is to be murdered, brutally.
The fear of death for a human is something that only attacks later in life, when you know that your time is coming to an end, even if you avoid all the evil in the world, a natural death is unavoidable for a human, but the fear of death for a vampire is always there and never there all at once.
You feel powerful and invincible because you know that time is not a slow killer for you, time is irrelevant. You know, often through experience, that taking a bullet hurts like hell but it isn’t life threatening, getting stabbed feels just like getting stabbed but we heal quickly and move on without a second thought.
But there is still the fear of those that know our secret. A fear of those that know of silver and fire and decapitation.
A quite plausible and realistic fear of being murdered.
That is above all why we hide what we are. If people knew that we were immortal in the natural sense, and knew that we had super human strength, they would panic. They would seek us out and hunt us like never before. They would know our secrets and come after us with silver bullets and fire throwers, they would kill with no mercy or guilt.
Living for eternity means living in the shadows.
There is no room for human friends, or relationships and acquaintances can last no longer then a few years, and it is often easier to just stay away from humans, then to let yourself care and then to have to pull yourself away time and time again, ripping your undead heart into tiny little pieces.
That is why I always watched over Beth from afar, never letting her see me or know I existed, but always being there to protect her if she needed me.
But I screwed up, I lingered on the edges of the fountain too long and she saw me.
The flash or recognition that crossed her face let me know I needed to vanish but there was something about her, something I had always known existed but never seen up close, she was entrancing, I couldn’t look away or move, and I let her speak to me.
A big mistake, because talking to her made me feel closer to her then ever before, and I knew that the clock had started ticking. The time limit that a vampire can be under the watch of an aging human had begun, and it had begun all too soon for my liking.
I knew that I must cherish the next few years, if Beth wanted to allow me to play a part in her life then I would, but I would always be watchful, making sure she wasn’t getting too close or figuring anything out by my behaviour, but I also dreaded the moment that I would need to walk out of her life.
I always have and always will love her, but I know we can never be. She is human, I am not, that’s all there is too it.
Eternity was a long time, it was quite literally forever.
But it is made even longer wanting someone you know you can never have, and watching them grow old and frail and die, knowing you could stop it, you could save them, but knowing turning them would be worse then death.
---end---
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[x]Author: Heartagram_LaLa
[x]Rating: PG
[x]Warning: None
[x]Pairing: Mick/Beth
[x]Genre: Angst
[x]Words: 639
[x]Spoilers: Ep 1 - There's no such thing as vampires.
[x]Summary: Set after Ep 1 - Mick's thoughts about immortality and what that means for relationships with humans
[x]Disclaimer: Not my toys, im just borrowing them =D
Forever for a human means a lifetime, forever for a vampire means many lifetimes. Watching those you come to care about constantly dying before your from-afar watching eyes.
Forever starts from the moment you are turned, and lasts many a human lifetime, right up until the moment you are killed.
And it is never pleasant, never quick and painless, being a vampire means the only way to die is to be murdered, brutally.
The fear of death for a human is something that only attacks later in life, when you know that your time is coming to an end, even if you avoid all the evil in the world, a natural death is unavoidable for a human, but the fear of death for a vampire is always there and never there all at once.
You feel powerful and invincible because you know that time is not a slow killer for you, time is irrelevant. You know, often through experience, that taking a bullet hurts like hell but it isn’t life threatening, getting stabbed feels just like getting stabbed but we heal quickly and move on without a second thought.
But there is still the fear of those that know our secret. A fear of those that know of silver and fire and decapitation.
A quite plausible and realistic fear of being murdered.
That is above all why we hide what we are. If people knew that we were immortal in the natural sense, and knew that we had super human strength, they would panic. They would seek us out and hunt us like never before. They would know our secrets and come after us with silver bullets and fire throwers, they would kill with no mercy or guilt.
Living for eternity means living in the shadows.
There is no room for human friends, or relationships and acquaintances can last no longer then a few years, and it is often easier to just stay away from humans, then to let yourself care and then to have to pull yourself away time and time again, ripping your undead heart into tiny little pieces.
That is why I always watched over Beth from afar, never letting her see me or know I existed, but always being there to protect her if she needed me.
But I screwed up, I lingered on the edges of the fountain too long and she saw me.
The flash or recognition that crossed her face let me know I needed to vanish but there was something about her, something I had always known existed but never seen up close, she was entrancing, I couldn’t look away or move, and I let her speak to me.
A big mistake, because talking to her made me feel closer to her then ever before, and I knew that the clock had started ticking. The time limit that a vampire can be under the watch of an aging human had begun, and it had begun all too soon for my liking.
I knew that I must cherish the next few years, if Beth wanted to allow me to play a part in her life then I would, but I would always be watchful, making sure she wasn’t getting too close or figuring anything out by my behaviour, but I also dreaded the moment that I would need to walk out of her life.
I always have and always will love her, but I know we can never be. She is human, I am not, that’s all there is too it.
Eternity was a long time, it was quite literally forever.
But it is made even longer wanting someone you know you can never have, and watching them grow old and frail and die, knowing you could stop it, you could save them, but knowing turning them would be worse then death.
---end---
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