Okay, well, I'll 5 1/2 hours late, but that episode was...
UN-FRICKIN-BELIEVABLE!!!!
Alex was phenomenal!!! As I knew he would be....GOD!!!! I CAN'T EVEN THINK RIGHT NOW! Seriously, that was some of the best acting I've seen. Absolutely top-notch! YEAH, ALEX!!!
Also, and this might come out a little strange, since it's 2:30 in the morning, but I definitely think that there was more significance to "the big wheel" than just the ferris wheel. But it's definitely symbolic of OCD...the repetitiveness of his life and all that.
Also, and this is probably not the best time to admit this, I have OCD, so a lot about this episode hit me pretty hard. I can really sympathize (okay, not entirely
) with Vincent. What really got to me was the double shutting doors. There was just something about it that brought tears to my eyes. It was so realistic and entirely relatable to me. While I have gotten a bit better, every time I would lock a door when I was younger I would lock it, test it, count to three out loud...and repeat three times. If you don't personally suffer from OCD, it's probably difficult to understand why someone with OCD can't just stop. I wish it were that easy. Unfortunately, OCD is often mistaken as just ultra-superstition. I admit, that, at least to me, it's similar in many ways. That's how all quirks start. You know...not rewearing anything you wear to a funeral, or even thinking the name of a disease, because you believe that by
thinking it, you will cause yourself or someone you love to get that disease. I used to do this all the time...if I would hear or think of a disease, I would whisper to myself "I will not get sick, mom will not get sick, dad will not get sick...etc." There were times that it would take me 10 minutes to recite the names of everyone I loved, including pets and, when I was really young, stuffed animals (okay, go ahead and laugh at that one...I do
) In time, the superstition morphs into something much stronger. It's as if your brain gets caught in a loop (hence, my interpretation of "The Big Wheel"). Like Vincent, you want to break that loop, but you can't, because your brain has been virtually rewired by your superstitions. It takes a long time and much effort to be able to function normally, at least for the more extreme cases. For me, personally, being OCD has made going about normal, everyday things very difficult and timeconsuming. Certain things that most people do automatically, it takes a great deal of extra effort to do. For instance, it can take me forever to type a paper up, because if I make a typo, I can't just go back and fix the mistake. I have to erase everything back to the error, fix it, and then retype everything. Fortunately, however, through lots of effort, I have gotten myself to the point that I have been able to break many of my previous rituals, and I can live almost entirely normally. Sure, I'll always have quirks, but they no longer rule my life...just certain parts of it.
Anyway, this is why Alex's portrayal of Vincent touched me...and I apologize for the lesson in OCD
, especially since you all probably know all that already. I honestly didn't mean to go on that long.
His acting was spot-on in this role, take it from me...however, I doubt any of you would disagree.
Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on...although you didn't really have a choice. It's ridiculous how far
my post got. LOL
hugs,
Kel~
P.S. I'll be back to partake in more Squeeing in the morning...but now it's 3:15 and I'm ready to drop.
. What happened after Stan asked Derek, "Did he kill my mom?" Your help will be much, much appreciated.
mwj for helping me out this morning in my panic. 
