The Sun and the Moon (One-shot) New 1/27/09 PG

[PNWgal]

Karen...I don't have words for how moving this was.

Even if Beth knew in her heart it was over with Josh, she DID love him at one point. It would make sense she would need to mourn him. Such a wonderful glimpse behind the scenes of what had to be so hard for her.

At that moment she understands. This is life. This isn’t a dress rehearsal. You only get one chance and it was time to take it. Glancing once again at the man she loves, she knows she'll take it.

EVERYONE should take this to heart. You only get one chance to live your life and find your love, and if you do, you grab on to it with both hands.

[darkstarrising]

Karen...I don't have words for how moving this was.

Even if Beth knew in her heart it was over with Josh, she DID love him at one point. It would make sense she would need to mourn him. Such a wonderful glimpse behind the scenes of what had to be so hard for her.

At that moment she understands. This is life. This isn’t a dress rehearsal. You only get one chance and it was time to take it. Glancing once again at the man she loves, she knows she'll take it.

EVERYONE should take this to heart. You only get one chance to live your life and find your love, and if you do, you grab on to it with both hands.

Jen,

thanks so much *hugs*. Yes, Beth loved Josh long before she encountered Mick. Life was fun with Josh, and perhaps she might have stayed with him had she not met Mick, but ultimately, I think they still would have parted. Josh liked order and had a black and white view of the world. Beth was spontaneous and was willing to bend the rules a bit. But she spent a year of her life with Josh and now it was time to say goodbye.

ITA about grabbing it with both hands. If you don't, you'll regret it for the rest of your life.

[starbucksjunkie]

Lovely, dsr, just lovely.

The emotions running through Beth's head at this time must have been dizzying. You wrote so eloquently about all of them.

Well done.

[darkstarrising]

Lovely, dsr, just lovely.

The emotions running through Beth's head at this time must have been dizzying. You wrote so eloquently about all of them.

Well done.

sbj,

thanks so much! From the time Josh was shot until the time she finally let go, Beth's emotions ran the gamut of anger, denial, sorrow, but ultimately, she accepts what's happened. From my POV, the guilt she felt about not being honest with Josh at first exacerbated everything else she felt. But on the morning of the funeral, she wakes up with greater clarity than she's had over the last week. She knows she'll move forward, but until she sees Mick at the cometary, she's not sure how.

[zanda]

I loved this, its so very Beth, clear headed no nonsense, things change, thanks you. Its beautifull

[francis]

I agree with you on Beth. Fanfic Beth is a better person than Show Beth. For Mick to be so in love with her she must have more qualities (esp. integrity) than the show allowed.

Silence to reflect on the man who loved her. Silence to wonder about the man she loved.

And that’s the problem in a nutshell. Both are onesided relationships in her POV, as Mick never told her about his feelings and she fell out of her feelings for Josh long ago.

The funeral has a silent, empty, but peaceful feeling. Beth is introspective, as one is at a funeral. She lets Josh go. She is ready for the future.
In the show I was kind of angry at her for giving Josh up so easily, moving on in the next episode already. But your writing makes me reconsider. She was ready to let go long ago, she just never took the plunge, afraid to hurt Josh. Now, she can be honest. In a way, she is free.

Making her way to the gravesite, each step felt just a little lighter. Each step brought her closer to this sorrowful journey’s end and to a new beginning.

And then there is Mick, and the words are meant for them. And Beth takes the one chance she has on living. Wonderful ending.

[skyeeblue]

I love this beautiful writing!!

[darkstarrising]

I loved this, its so very Beth, clear headed no nonsense, things change, thanks you. Its beautifull

I love this beautiful writing!!

Zanda, skyeeblue,

thank you both...Beth is practical and after she has had time to deal with all of the emotional upheaval of Josh's death, she is ready to move on.

[darkstarrising]

I agree with you on Beth. Fanfic Beth is a better person than Show Beth. For Mick to be so in love with her she must have more qualities (esp. integrity) than the show allowed.

Silence to reflect on the man who loved her. Silence to wonder about the man she loved.

And that’s the problem in a nutshell. Both are onesided relationships in her POV, as Mick never told her about his feelings and she fell out of her feelings for Josh long ago.

The funeral has a silent, empty, but peaceful feeling. Beth is introspective, as one is at a funeral. She lets Josh go. She is ready for the future.
In the show I was kind of angry at her for giving Josh up so easily, moving on in the next episode already. But your writing makes me reconsider. She was ready to let go long ago, she just never took the plunge, afraid to hurt Josh. Now, she can be honest. In a way, she is free.

Making her way to the gravesite, each step felt just a little lighter. Each step brought her closer to this sorrowful journey’s end and to a new beginning.

And then there is Mick, and the words are meant for them. And Beth takes the one chance she has on living. Wonderful ending.

francis,

thank you so much *hugs* Beth's character in the show really became almost one dimensional and the writers on this board have done much to fix that. Over the course of the week since Josh died (we don't have a sense of how long it was between his death and his funeral in the show), she has had time to get over the initial shock and grief and eventually sort things out. Josh had ceased to be the center of her universe some time ago, but he was comfortable. While she was attracted to Mick, his world was just a bit too frightening, so she hangs on to Josh. When she learned he was going to propose to her, she had to do a little soul searching and found that she wouldn't have been able to accept his offer. Then, the begging question: why? Because her heart and soul belonged to another, something she now understood.

[AussieJo]

DS, echoing..... echoing......It was beautifully written and pure Beth!

[darkstarrising]

DS, echoing..... echoing......It was beautifully written and pure Beth!

AussieJo,

thanks so much! I have a soft spot for Beth and felt she didn't get a fair shake toward the end of the series. This was my way of showing how her sorrow and inner reflection led to her decision to move forward with her life.

[Fleur de Lisa]

Moving and just plain lovely.
Thank you for showing us this version of Beth, which I believe is the realistic one. Everyone grieves differently, and this shows her sadness and pain, yet her hopefulness towards moving forward with her life.

[darkstarrising]

Moving and just plain lovely.
Thank you for showing us this version of Beth, which I believe is the realistic one. Everyone grieves differently, and this shows her sadness and pain, yet her hopefulness towards moving forward with her life.

Fleur de Lisa,

thanks so much! She loved him and as such, she grieved for him. Yet she was in love with someone else, and turned her focus toward the future. If she had still been in love with Josh, her response would have been different.

[Moonlightsonata]

Thank you. This was a lovely one-shot and very true to the Beth Mick fell in love with.

And yes we only have one life and need to make the most of it.

Thank you again. Look forward to the continuation of the other story.

I know I have hardly posted to this board, but I just want to say that it is starting to feel like home. Sorry I am not very technically competent in terms of an avitar or a banner. Please excuse my lack of decorations.

[darkstarrising]

Thank you. This was a lovely one-shot and very true to the Beth Mick fell in love with.

And yes we only have one life and need to make the most of it.

Thank you again. Look forward to the continuation of the other story.

I know I have hardly posted to this board, but I just want to say that it is starting to feel like home. Sorry I am not very technically competent in terms of an avitar or a banner. Please excuse my lack of decorations.

Moonlightsonata,

First, thank you for your kind words, both here and elsewhere. The next chapter of 'Til Death is about half done, but sometimes, I need to leave it for a bit and write more focused pieces. I'm glad this feels like home, but please, don't apologize for anything. I had the same difficulty when I got started. Besides, it's your presence that's important.